Archive for October, 2003
Thursday, October 30th, 2003
Well, today has been surprisingly good. I don’t really know why I’m feeling good today, but I am. Maybe I’ve had a busy day to keep my mind off things. Even now though in a quieter moment I’m still good.
I reckon part of it is due to me getting back in contact with various people today, which is what I miss most being out here in Herefordshire – just chatting away with my friends. Living in the house in Nottingham was really nice really – I mean the house may have been fairly rubbish, but it was the people around that made it nice. Plus it was fairly comfy. Hmm, carry on.
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Monday, October 27th, 2003
Happiness, Anger, Rage, Jealousy. Just a few of the emotions I have felt today, mainly from putting some things together in my head that probably are rubbish.
Anyway, I’ve decided that I’m going to read the top 21 books in the BBC’s Big Read, as I’ve only read 4 of them (The Hitch-Hiker’s Guide To The Galaxy, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, Lord of the Rings and Wuthering Heights). How many have you read? Add your answers as a comment. Don’t think I can quite make it in the time before the winner is announced. I’m quite a fast reader, but I’d have to manage 3 a week, and War and Peace is in there too! Still, I’ve got “His Dark Materials”, “Great Expectations” and “1984″ on order for now to get on with.
In addition, plans are afoot for changing my car. Those of you who know me quite well, you might guess what I’ll be getting. Test drove one last week. Kick ass!
Going out in Bristol tonight too, eating at Wagamama, then who knows what. I’m hoping I can not think about all the issues surrounding me at the moment and just have fun with my friends. Without drink of course because I’ll be driving. Not always a bad thing to leave the beer googles at home though!
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Friday, October 24th, 2003
Took the digital camera in to work on Thursday for a collegue to see who was interested. Forgot to take it home though, which in some ways is fortunate as I had the opportunity to take this photo. See I said Herefordshire could be nice. Pity it’s also pretty boring at the moment too. I’m working on changing that one though…
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Wednesday, October 22nd, 2003
I’ve fixed some bugs in the comments code. It can now deal with characters that upset MySQL. Who knew PHP had a function for adding the escape sequences? Useful!
You can also no longer post a comment without putting your name and e-mail address. Hopefully that means I’ll get some more meaningful comments now rather than morons. Face it guys, you won’t know how good it is to be in a long term relationship until you grow up a bit.
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Sunday, October 19th, 2003
I visited Fran in Oxford yesterday, and we went to watch Finding Nemo (quite good, but a bit simpler than previous Pixar films). Around that, we spent quite a long time discussing where our relationship had gone wrong, how her new relationship with Simon was going, and how she got into that relationship. There were quite a lot of things that I found out that were quite upsetting, but I’m my way home, I actually started to feel happy. I know now that it really is completely over between us, and I can move on from it now. A lot of the problems in our relationship seemed to result from Fran not telling me about them, and I made sure I told her so. I mean no relationship is perfect, but how can you expect it to last if you don’t try to fix any problems that you have. It also seemed that a lot of the issues she didn’t talk to me about were actually misunderstandings on her part. For example, she feared that the reason I didn’t want to move out of home until I could move in with her was because I didn’t want to be on my own, and that I wanted her to be my mother. If she’d asked me about these fears, she would have known that the reason I wanted to live with her was simply to be with her, to have someone to come home to who I could cuddle up to. So in the end, while if we talked about it, maybe we would have lasted, but if she’s happy where she is now, then that’s great. Being in a relationship with someone who is not really happy and worried about the other’s intentions is not much fun.
She still is a wonderful person though. I did start to think yesterday that maybe I shouldn’t see her at all any more, because it was just too upsetting, but I don’t know, today I feel different. She’s a good person to talk to, so I’ll keep doing that. She is my best friend after all!
Love is a funny thing really. In the weeks since we broke up, it’s over-rided every sensible thought that has popped up in my mind, telling me that it’s daft to think you’ll get back together with her because you’ve broken up twice now, and maybe that should tell you something. Am I still in love with Fran? Today I’m not so sure. For the first time in 3 years and 5 months, I feel different towards Fran. I do see some of her bad points. I don’t think she has been fair to me. I think that maybe it would have been appropriate not to get into another relationship already. She can be far to single minded, and occasionally didn’t consider how her actions would make others feel. I would never have stopped her doing anything, but I wasn’t pleased with the way she planned to do other things after agreeing to do things with me. To stop her doing anything that she wanted would have been wrong, but the manner in which she went about it left a bad taste in the mouth on occasion.
The ending of this relationship seems to nicely bookend my life up to now. I’ve finished University, the time of my life where I am learning. I learnt a lot being in this relationship, and anything that occurs in the future will be helped by that experience. (Watch out, cliche coming!) It’s time to start a new chapter, start afresh. Who knows what the future hold and where I am going to end up. This week I will take the first step.
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Wednesday, October 15th, 2003
I’ve added GeoURL to the bottom of this page, along with the validation stuff (although if anyone can tell me why the little line has appeared to the right of the CSS picture). Apparently, there aren’t that many people with web sites near me, only people who take lots of pictures. Which I suppose is hardly surprising as it’s really rather picturesque. I’ll get some pictures and put them up on here so you can see what I mean. Perhaps over the weekend. I am going to visit Fran on Saturday though to see Finding Nemo. I’m hoping I have a good time. We’ll see what happens…
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Tuesday, October 14th, 2003
I don’t really know why (actually that’s a lie, I do know why, but it’s a fairly irrational reason that’s probably only in my imagination) but I’ve been feeling really angry all day today. I’ve not had a go at anyone today though, and I’m sure it’ll have passed by tomorrow – I didn’t get an especially good night’s sleep last night. Still, it’s been a most odd day…
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Sunday, October 12th, 2003
I bet you can’t guess what I got on DVD on Friday? This. I’ve watched it a few times since then, and I have to say, it is one of the most kick ass movies ever. It takes everything that’s great about the original, multiplies it by 10, adds some unecessary dialogue (ergo) and cooks until slightly underdone. Even with a couple of flaws in it like though, it’s still in as one of my all time favourite movies. With less than a month until Revolutions comes out though, it’s a damn good time of year.
I’ve also got Soul Calibur II. Get it.
In other news, we’re getting some wireless networking kit here, which means of course that I have to get something to take proper advantage of such stuff. I can’t wait to get the server built (mmm, Pentium 120Mhz!) so I can enjoy browsing the Internet across the house with no wires. Once I’ve had a few more paycheques I might just invest in a proper kick ass laptop (not to play games on mind, just to play around with some of my cool ideas).
I’m in quite a good mood at the moment too. Going to Nottingham this week was certainly great fun. Great to see everyone again, although I wasn’t able to make it to Wagamama, I was able to visit The Bread Shop, opposite Jubilee Campus. It truly is king of all baguette shops. Nice and cheap and excellent food. Even if they don’t have brie…
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Saturday, October 4th, 2003
This week has been ok. Feeling a bit happier in myself, but I still miss Fran everyday. Been out shopping for some clothes today though. Bought a couple of cool shirts for going out with this week in Nottingham, Series 3 of Yes, Minister on DVD and the new NOFX album – “The War On Errorism”. Seems pretty good to me so far (I am listening to it now). Next week I’m working Monday-Wednesday but heading up to Nottingham in the evening for a night out with the motorsports lads at Mode, Thursday going to look at a go kart and Friday, who knows. I’ve got some ideas for the weekend, but I’ll let you know after then how it went…
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